I’m not doing well. I feel as if I’m not going anywhere. I need a change.

i broke my hand.

on the bright side i think i magically became ok with the difficult thing in my life.

i am not ok and i very much doubt that i ever will be again.

i’m 22 today. i had a similar feeling when i turned 21, but it’s stronger now. and that feeling is…indifference and maybe a bit of sadness. i didn’t even remember that my birthday was coming up until two days ago.

For those who actually follow what i post you know i have been having a rather tough time for almost the past year…. i don’t even know where i’m going with this.

i’m not really getting anything this year for my birthday. i don’t want stuff or things. i just want someone to be with, to hold, to love.

i’m lonely.

It’s me again. I need someone to be my friend. Someone who won’t run away. Maybe send me an angel, the nicest angel you have.

…

So I’ve had ADD all along and everyone knew except me because no one told me, or rather they told me that i didn’t. Plus i’m likely depressed, i have anxiety issues, and i definitely have memory loss issues, and maybe one or two other things. no wonder i’m not doing well.

Each aspect of my life is like a wall of a cage. They are closing in and i’m the animal stuck inside. I’m scared. I’m just trying not to bite anyone. I’m so sorry.

what kind of people know what the tops of their shoes/feet look like better than anyone?

A: Introverts

please, someone kill this beast inside me. stop it before it gets loose. this anger is too much, this pain is impossible. if it gets loose someone will get hurt. please someone kill it.

something needs to change, i am not ok.